Monday, June 20, 2011

I am a father

in this myth
I am a father
  and eternal old man

new one
first one
carried
by your mother

helpless I stand by

imperfect

limited in the wisdom
of this human condition

I look into your room
                    and wait.




Written on June 18th 1999
He turns 12 tomorrow.

18 comments:

  1. ollie, i feel as though i've just seen you in a crowd and i've stopped on your face thinking, i know this man, i know this man. yes! i know this man, for i am he. limited in the wisdom
    of this human condition.


    xo
    erin

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  2. Oh this is really special... beautiful!

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  3. Do monks and Abbesses customarily have children? Hey, just asking!

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  4. Sure...just join the right order.

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  5. So touching, Ollie. He turns twelve. Wow, it all goes so amazingly fast. Just yesterday my youngest was twelve and now she is 35!!!!!! THIRTY FIVE! (I just freaked myself out!) I love this poem, with its familiar feelings of parenthood.

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  6. Oh, I know that feeling of imperfection and being limited. Ugh. It can be so frustrating. We just dropped off our 12 year old in DC for the week. It has been a hard time for me to let him go, let him grow up. It's such a double-edged sword, parenting is. Standing there, fighting back tears. I knew this was right, was good, but it was tearing my heart up realizing it was the first of many steps to separate. So hard, but worth it all.

    Beautifully done :)

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  7. "helpless I stand by" yup...evocative stuff x

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  8. Brings forth good thought, the 'helpless' sideline watch, great write ~ Rose

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  9. Nicely done, as the sidelines have to be taken, in order for all to find their place.

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  10. So each finds their own way...

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  11. Nothing like a child to make you dig deep every day. All your usual clarity and subtlety in this one...coming here always clears my head.

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  12. mine are 16, 19 and 20 now and there were times i felt helpless as well..but that's not really bad...just very honest and all ways are wide open from there..

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  13. if there will be a school to perfect raising a child... it will be filled in the first day... LOL! as long as you are doing what your conscience is telling you to be right, that's enough!

    JJRod'z

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  14. Oh, I love this! The magnanimity of a little one born and the humility in the way they rock our world.

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  15. I am not a father, but I can image such a moment when reality just hits one: I don't have all the answers. What am I doing? A tender poem.

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  16. A lovely mystery. I don't know what to make of your reference to the 12 year old boy in 1999. Before reading that, my interpretation was spiritual/religious. But I see that your play on words and form can be made to work on many levels. Wonderful!

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  17. wow. awesome. (and i don't throw that word around lightly)

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